feels so forbidden and pathetic to watch these girls. I think even the pleasure of seeing their beautiful body that is owned by much better stronger and more desired men, as a forever sexless and almost certainly also denied every kind of sexual pleasure that satisfy my perverted staring and lust. this pathetic reality that i will never experience real sexual pleasure and experiences except weak and unsatisfiying orgasms to only interracial porn that just shows me what i will forever miss because i am not even able to leave my house and it is what i deserve.